I feel like i was put on this world as a joke.. Last week my ex made plans to visit me (and other people)-- it was a complicated long distance relationship which is now ended due to her only spending 12hrs with me in one day and the rest of her time in this city with god know who.. havent seen her.. havent picked up her 2 calls.. thats it. its done. she even deleted me from her facebook today.

other than that.. i was trying to move on (so soon? not really.. but i have no friends and i need someone to talk to).. so i joined a dating site.. been on there for a few days. it seems like i even have no luck in the online dating world.. i must have sent about 40 winks to 40 different females and what do i get? 14 views to my page with no responses.. all this stuff is killing me inside.

it really doesnt help that i got a new job to get on the path to a better life for myself and the female who did me so dirty last week.. im so depressed about it, i feel like crying but no tears come. its so hard to concentrate on work.

i feel like im very ugly, dont know how to communicate with people, (or dating sites dont work, as far as that goes..). im not sure where this thread goes.. im so confused. i wish i knew how to talk to females in person so i can have a real relationship.. in person. never had one.