My mood is getting lower and I am getting more desparate by the day. I have isolated myself totally for days and I feel like everyone has turned their back on me. Sui......is on my mind more and more. I just want to be done with all this pain and suffering. It seems that all that I have worked for is gone and happiness is not within my reach again. I am going to get the house and things straight today and see where I go from here. I have no one to turn to. I have burned all the bridges I have crossed and no one sees me as anything except crazy. I know I am rambling and I am sorry. I just have no one to talk to and I am so alone.