Thanks. I do not have a therapist. No money or insurance. If i call the dr. I will be back in the hospital but due to no insurance it would be the state hospital which is horrible. I just feel like I am as low as I can go now in my life. I worked all my life and for the last 20 years was able to make a good living with nothing to show for it now. I have burned my bridges and can not find a job. I have almost no money left and have nowhere to go. No one understands how i feel. I know that sui.....is not the answer but I dont have a clue how to help myself anymore. I just sit here in this apartment until I get kicked out.