Dearest Blue...........I just came across this and read what you wrote. It is amazing the wall of pain that some of us are hiding in back of. There's one impression to be made in Games; and then there's the real one that can't be buried in "fun". As I think you're seeing here already, strangers quickly become friends. The speed, for some reason, seems much faster than in real life. I think anyone who comes here, is hurting in some way..........everyone reaches out in compassion and understanding. Please come back and post whenever you need to. We all hold each other's hands.
If you can, let us know how the family get-together goes........maybe the dread will be worse than the reality. Hugs and support........your new friend, grey