so apologies to all if this complaint seems to never end but i'm facing something i havent ever before. my husband is going out of town for the weekend and i feel like the end of the world has arrived. i think the only thing that keeps me from complete insanity when he goes to work (nightshift 6 days a week) is the knowledge that hes only a half an hour away. i do my best not to call and beg him to come home (i come here instead and vent and rant and type in full my complete breakdowns). this time, that option doesnt even exist. hes going to be a plane flight away and my idiotic brain has been at work all day conjuring every possible disastrous scenario. whats scaring me the most is that my two year old is very ill, and may need to be hospitalized, and i fear that without the voice of reason in our household i'm going to be rushing this kid to the er at the first sign of discomfort. trying to keep it together right now, just like every night, but i'm about to lose my head. i havent called 911 in a long time and i'm worried my fear will overpower my embarassment and i'm going to have the police, paramedics or both in and out of here all weekend because of my stupid defective thinking. dont know if anyone else has had to deal with this. i'm seriously considering taking my boys and staying with an old friend, but my husband hates the guy and if he gets wind of that it i will be in very deep *&^%. what to do? help!!!!