Four hours and still no "your welcome" to the thank you text I sent. I acknowledge that most of the irritaion is caused by me and the obsessive compulsive disorder, but it is irritating none the less. Also I am not in the best shape today as I spent the weekend having too much fun, not exercising, having guests over too late and last night my cat felt the need to wake me up every hour. I should not get so irritated like I do, he is a guy adn they do not think the same as women. I know he cares about me and this past week and weekend he really did make an effort to make time for me and even consented to going out when I wanted and he did not and he did end up having a great time. Yesterday we had a nice morning together and for once did not seem to rush me out of his place, instead it was me who had to bail. He is just not like most people and I have to remind myself that he is 1) not an American and therefore does not have the mindset that all of my other boyfriends have. 2) he is an academic (so am I but I am also very good at adapting socially to the group I am with at the moment. 3) he is very very unhappy with most aspects of his life and has told me that I am one of the things in his life that is not causing him stress. 4) He is a philosopher and really does not think like most people. 5) he is a guy and his brain does not work like mine 6)

But he does have some great qualities and when we are together he can be soo sweet and kind and affectionate that it is worth the other crap I have to put up with.

But at the same time our time together is not permanent so I have to constantly remind myself that it will probably end in a year and not to let myself fall in love with him (and sometimes he annoys the crap out of me and I actually think that I am glad we do not live together cause I might have to strangle him if I did) so for now I meed to take it one day at a time, not obsessively check my phone to see if he has called, let him make the plans half of the time(and it is his turn next so I wonder when he will call because of the hockey game/)

For now what I need to do to be happy in this relationship is not let it be the first priority in my life(it is not yet, and I need to keep it that way) I need to make me first including not eating crap food, exercising every day, taking time to meditate, taking time to unwind with the cats, continuing to spend lots of time with my friends, and accepting that the best way to approach this relationship is from the Harry Connick Jr. song "Nothing lasts forever so I figure I better take you forever, for now"