I had to do it tonight. I called the on call therapist for my clinic. When I called her she was ready to go into a consult at a nearby hospital and maybe that's why she was so snippy. I always feel bad for having to call them but gosh darn it I'm not doing well now. I was watching Dr.Phil today and something on his show triggered me and I called my T but he was in group and didn't call me back. I am still scared to go into my kitchen because that's where my sharp objects are. So I bit the bullet and called her. I haven't had to call them in about 3 months and was proud of myself but had to do it tonight. I even called my GP's office. I think part of my problems is the new med they put me on for my migranes. I was told don't take it and call them in the morning and talk to the doc. When I talked to my T a different time today he told me to try to get in to see my Pdoc sooner so I did and I'm supposed to see her on Monday. I don't understand why she is nasty sometimes and other times really sweet. I did call back and talk to her again after I took my night meds, took a bath, tried to watch T.V. and did all my coping skills I know of. She was Ok when I called her back. Maybe she was just stressed about having to go into the consult. I don't know but she didn't have to be nasty.

Ok I'm done whining now.

Jbug