Thanks to everyone. I just do not feel like I can reach out to old friends yet. I disappointed alot of people with my sui....attempt. I still do not feel like I ready to reach out and I do have one friend who listen but she has a lot going on right now so I dont want to be a bother. I will be out of my house tomorrow and hopefully I will continue to find things to keep me busy and going until I get out this phase of depression. I appreciate all the support I get on PC.