Itsuno, welcome to the forum.

I was also severely bullied at school, and like you I lowered myself to their level and fought back. I've had quite a few broken bones in my time, mainly ribs, feet and fingers, and I suspect I inflicted a few broken bones myself. My parents never really got how horrific school was for me, and as a result I've been very involved in watching my son's education. School can be a horrible thing.

I'm glad that you love your Mum... the knowledge that you have a parent who loves you is a precious thing, and it is such a blessing to love your mother, or father. I always feel so sad for people who have been abused who hold it against their parents... because that basic human need to love has been frustrated. It sounds like your Mom is a brave woman, who recognised abuse when she saw it, and moved away from it. I'm glad she lives near you. My Mum has been dead twenty years, and I miss her every day. You are so lucky to have a loving mother living near you. You must be some son to have inspired her to have the courage to save herself.

Anyway... welcome again to the forums. I'm glad to make your acquaintance, and hope that you find the boards as helpful and friendly as I have done.