I'm a fortysomething gal now but I still suffer in some ways from what happened...it's hard for me to form attachments and trust other people, even when it's for my own good...and holidays are horrible with no real family to celebrate with..my staff says 'well make your peers like family' which is hard to do because some of them struggle with their own illness issues such as being emotionally 'flat'(my roommate, due to his schizophrenia) and their own problems...some days when I come home from college I am so stressed out, I try to talk with roomie but because of his illness and being hard of hearing he does not 'get' it...I want to cry sometimes. I feel so alone....and I feel no-one understands or even believes that I struggle with feeling unappreciated, unloved, and unwanted sometimes.