Thanks everyone. I just know that he deserves MUCH better than what is going on at the moment. I have really horrid mood swings and he cops it, I get scared and hide under a doona and he tries to get me out and I freak out, my SI upsets him and when I take anything to make myself feel better that upsets him too.

I know I need to look after my little girl (7yo) because otherwise my ex will get custody and I will never have her back. Im also worried if we do end up in court with my ex, that they will dig and try to show me as an unfit mother.

I have no family support locally apart from my husband, and he's got enough stress. He is jobsearching and going slightly mad from not working, but he's now being the housewife too.

Everything is just fked.