We have been working on this for a long, long time. She talks about how I don't feel that I deserve anything and I feel totally unworthy of anything good happening in my life. She is not forcing forgiveness on me or expecting me to just do it over night. Like I said, we have been working on this a very long time.

We are currently working on my marriage, so of course, this is going to come up. She feels that I cannot heal my marriage unless I learn to forgive myself for mistakes I have made. She says that this keeps me stuck and we need to get me unstuck so that I can heal and move forward.

I told her that make take awhile. Her response was, "No matter how long it takes, it is worth the time and effort you put into it. I am going to be here for you no matter how long it takes."

I know that I cannot heal my marriage all by myself. It takes the two of us (my spouse as well). But she tells me that I can be a much happier person if I learn to accept myself and the mistakes I have made and not keep myself in such bondage because I am not perfect.

I have asked if we can start meeting twice a week over the summer. Not sure that will help, but maybe it will kick start me to getting to the root of some of my issues?