thank you. as for my husband, he's kind of at the end of his rope with my panic attacks and . . . other issues. i used to call him at work all the time but he started getting annoyed about that too. i'm not sure theres much about me that doesnt annoy him these days. i'm not a very good judge of how people are thinking or feeling, but he's pretty outspoken about these things. the frustrated can you shut up already thing is not in my head. he says it all the time. and i'm equally frustrated because i take my meds and go to the pdoc and it would be nice to be. . . able to get througha night or two without suffering a breakdown in one form or another. thanks again for listening.