OMG, Jackie! I'm soooo glad you made it through ok! Don't worry about if you are feeling numb, or not feeling as emotional as you think you should. There is no should. Everything processes in our own time and our own way.
Know that you will be very much in my thoughts. Please do not hesistate in the least to avail yourself of the support here as you work through this.
I know that you were getting on a lighter schedule with your T... do you still have some appts with them though? If not, it would be a good idea to check in, so as to have that safety net also in place...
Much