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Old May 24, 2011, 12:36 AM
5-HTP 5-HTP is offline
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Perhaps you can help me.

I'm in my early twenties and an undergraduate student majoring in biology. I've got a 3.6 gpa.

I am moderately anxious about transferring to a school farther away in the fall. I currently commute to class.

The main sticking point for me is that the last time I did this I screwed up spectacularly. I am horrifically afraid of moving out, though I want to do so for grad school.

I am... not a people person. People, as you know, are usually fairly irrational. Having been hurt by the irrational decisions of others in often severe ways at a rate that is probably more than my share of pain (I don't want to go into it - suffice to say there are certain places I avoid and certain times, when a vehicle I am a passenger in drives past certain places, that I shut my eyes. I had depression once and was successfully treated for it), I am scared of suffering at the hands of those who are overly emotional or too quick to act or have problems thinking logically. Fundamentalist Abrahamic types, for example, make me nervous.

It's hard for me to find people who really 'operate on my wavelength' and who I find trustworthy, too.

Stuff like this is energy-sapping - do you realize how much energy it takes just to keep sane in the face of all the people out there who have an inadequate amount of marbles? - and indeed the last time I did this I was also depressed, so neglected my health, diet, and cleanliness. This has been solidly remedied, but I am afraid of the probability that I will neglect it again.

Get your neurons working and give me some ideas.
Thanks for this!
soso