I think you need to slow down and be a little patient with the diagnosis. You have to remember that having bipolar is a chronic illness AND spectrum disorder. Expecting to get results within a month or two is asking a bit much, to be honest. I'm 2 years into this battle and barely understanding the complexities of my highs and lows. It also took me a little over 2 years to find medication that seems to be working, but I still have some issues. (More forgetful/oversleeping etc.)

I understand the swinging, I know how it feels when it seems like nothing will ever get better, but it will. You just gotta put faith in your team and yourself. Also, it helps to lighten up a little.

Good luck on your prognosis. :') I have faith it will get easier for you with time since you seem to be so intent on getting well. It's good to see that in people. :'D