Thanks itsuno
I have read your other posts and share your quandry on what to do. When my emotions are there I can not seem to control them and when they are not there I can not find them!

This is what I know so far... no feeling is a defence, it is less hurtful than feeling and it serves a purpose and it does actually work, so lets not throw the baby out with the bathwater! Perhaps slowly is good.

If I were replying to your post I might consider suggesting keeping a diary (UGH! i hear you say!) but it has a purpose. when you write things down maybe take a step back and look at it as if someone else was reading it and ask yourself "what would they feel?" Maybe then practice what it might be like to feel that emotion i.e. how would your body be what might your face look like, what psyical sensations would you experience. etc

I think a therapist might look at what purpose it is serving and then replace them slowly by re-teaching feelings but in a small way first so that they are not overwhelming?

I will take my own advice and apply it and let you know if it works!!!