To those who want me to stop posting about my problems with admin guy...I just want to say that posting about him and my urges is *MY* way to cope with the situation and is *MY* way to *STOP* e-mailing him.

If I can't post here about my problems, I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself.

I'm replacing one behaviour (e-mailing admin guy) with another (posting here). What should I do if I cannot post here?