Thanks Emily.
I'm afraid I've been temorarily "banished".
I don't really need anyone to give me long responses or anything like that. People can help me just by listeninig. I don't expect everyone to listen. You could really help me if you just listened and maybe give me a supportive hug or something.
Meanwhile I'll learn how to be supportive myself. I don't think it happens overnight...I haven't lived a very social life.