I agree with dragonfly, it seems to me like you may need to consider going to the ER if you're feeling suicidal. You need to think about yourself, too. I'm sorry that the medications and doctors you've tried haven't worked. Do you think there is anything different you could try? Are there alternative forms of therapy you maybe haven't considered before?

I'm sorry your wife is apparently not taking you seriously. Perhaps you both might benefit from getting therapy together. If you go to regular sessions, I would suggest bringing her along so she can get a better idea of what you're going through. It could be a real eye-opener. If you don't have a regular therapist or regular sessions, I think you should definitely set something up. Have some realistic expectations though. Things won't change or improve overnight, but if you stick with it and make some lifestyle changes and try to think positively, things can get better.

As for not being able to connect with your son, it does sound quite a bit like you're suffering from a form of post-partum depression. It's not your fault! Again, something that might take some professional intervention to overcome, but not impossible.

I hope everything works out for you and keep on coming over to PC!