I feel like I'm going to be stuck at home with my parents forever...

I'm never going to make it out in the real world. I don't have anything. I don't have any of my own money. I don't have any skills...especially people skills. I can't do anything. I'm such a loser.



What am I going to do? I'm such a loser I can't even get a degree in 5 years. I still have 3 more classes to do after this semester because I dropped so many classes. I wasted a LOT of money by dropping so many classes.

I'm terribly behind in one of my classes and I've decided to drop that too.

I'm doing poorly on two classes right now because I've been skipping classes...in fact, I skipped a midterm...

I don't know what to do.

On Tues I have 2 tests. I'm not worried about the environmental science class because so far I have about a high 80 average in that class. I"m really worried about my animal physiology midterm on Tues. I'm not ready at ALL. I'm going to fail it, I just know it. I've skipped too many classes and I haven't done the homework...

I'm so screwed. I've been pretending that things have been going alright. I've been lying to everyone, including to my pdoc2 about how I'd been doing in school.

Last semester, I actually dropped all my classes. I was too behind. I lied to everyone, even people on the boards here and at another place...I lied and said that I dropped two classes, when I really dropped all of them. I lied to my parents...everyone, even myself.

I took the bus and wandered aimlessly, pretending to go to class...I'm really messed up.

I don't have enough credits to graduate yet. It's going to take me 6 freaking years just to get my Bachelors of Science...and it won't even be a good degree...being only a general science degree.

I also don't have much lab experience...I'm so screwed. I feel like I should give up on life. I'm just really scared of the world. I think I've been sabotaging myself.

I did really well in high school, got a scholarship and everything...only to be kicked out of the program I had selected...that is why I'm in general science now. I'm just lucky I'm not on probation for poor grades. Somehow I've been able to keep my grades above the minimum

I'm so screwed. I'm scared and desperate. I don't know what to do. I think I've screwed up my life big time.

I'll never get a job, I'll never make anything of myself at this rate.

I'm scared of life.