My Pdoc has suggested EMDR but he has no one to recommend me to right now....I think I will push him more on this because the PTSD is seeming to get worse rather than better & that is going to therapy 4 days per week. I feel like I am getting so much worse rather than better that I am afraid of myself & can't handle it anymore. I am getting to a point where I want out & don't know how to get out. I remember before when attempting suisice would have been my solution, but Izzy & my new future filly who will arrive within the next few weeks along with my baby puppies stop any of that as an option any more.

I just want it to all go away..
Debbie