1. nothing is WRONG with you. 2. you can get excellent help and live your life as you wish to live it.

first of all, get a therapist. ASAP......and i mean that! i know i'm being bossy, but you need someone, objective, to talk to. your fears aren't your fault. you sound extremely depressed to me. and there are many, many other meds that can be tried and can change your life. please, please make an appointment on Monday to see someone.

talk to your parents about this and if you're up to it, print your post out and let them read it. i'm certain that they will be more than happy to help you get this situation turned around.

all is NOT lost. look at what you've already achieved. great grades, acceptance into a prestigious university and the courage to at least go there opening day.

i didn't live in a dorm when i was in college. i lived in a small apartment with a cousin. i knew that i couldn't handle dorm life. heck, i still couldn't handle dorm life. i'd be slapping people and hiding in my closet. not everyone is cut out for that big social scene. discuss that with your parents also. your school may have "dorm" rules, but if they don't...perhaps living off campus would help.

i interacted very little my first year in school. my last year i was voted friendlest girl on campus. the point is that you can make adjustments and do what you want to do...further your education and get a good life for yourself.

please feel free to PM me if you need to. i work today and tonight and i am off all day tomorrow. (mentally off AND off work) xoxoxo pat