Hi everyone,

My soon-to-be-ex has started moving his stuff out of the house, and it's really hitting home that I'm about to be alone. I feel like I've sprung a leak, I've been crying so much. The thing is, even as he's moving his stuff out, he's still being so thoughtful and considerate. I know our drifting apart had as much to do with me as him, but I am starting to realize that through all of my confusion about our relationship, what I really wanted was to be able to repair things, not to split up. But since he has decided to give up on us, I don't have much choice but to move on.

And so I cry as he moves out...and hopefully I will learn a lesson about not waiting until things are too far gone to fix before I say something is bothering me.

*sigh*
mj