Hang in there, Jackie.
Retail therapy of small proportions for creatures that can share your love is a good idea.
When you go to a pet shop its called buyology.
Goldfish are awesome. Not the brightest buttons on the planet, but they can cope with their own company for days if you need to go away, and they don't grumble about the cold weather or Eskom power outages. But a chameleon can walk on your shoulder, and a fish just feels funny to hug.
Oh, whatever. I tell my fish jokes, and if I imagine hard enough, I can hear them laughing.