I guess this goes here as what i am about to post is a phobia (not sure i can call it a phobia but i am afraid of it non the less) of mine

Way back when my mom seperated with my father, i liked him but, i came over to his home often to play games he was making (the point will come just continue to read). One day when i was playing outside, dehydrated and he just walk right past me to play with a neigborhood kid (ofcource my mom gave me water and all that).

today i am learning how to make games, while i write down story, characters you name it. since the senario i have told about dehydrated i have been angry at him, that and that he never tried to contact me until i became an adult, and because i am developing a game (and learning how to make one) and he did the same thing i am afraid of becoming like him

i have never spoken about it and i have never gotten it out of my system and i dont know what to do with it