i've been seeing a pdoc for a little while. mostly we discuss my meds, physical symptoms i'm experiencing (rapid heart beat or stomach problems for example that are caused by my panic attacks), or my fears concerning my health, which is bad but probably because i dont take care of myself. recently started seeing a therapist as well. sort of keeping it to myself for the time being because my husband thinks its a huge waste of time and my parents dont think theres anything psychologically wrong with me. any way, finally got around to discussing flashbacks and triggers and some of the events of my past and its something i was putting off but i felt like i needed to get it out, like its been choking me. and at first i felt relieved. but then i started falling into a depression. it crept up on me gradually but then it was just so intense, and still is. everything is making me cry. i feel ill (i am actually sick right now, but its a different kind of feeling) and i am just panicky and nervous and angry and confused. i just dont know what happened. for a few hours i was ok, even proud of myself for taking this step that i thought was in the right direction. but its just been a downward spiral. i dont know who to talk to about it, lately the people in my life just dont want to hear it. ok. not just lately, but generally speaking if i'm down everyone starts running in the opposite direction. is this going to go away or get better? its like a therapy hangover and i feel like i never want to go again.