I have posted here before about my on again off again relationship and I'm really hurting right now. I just talked to him and we both were very emotional ..I know he loves me and he knows I love him but heres the problem..I don't understand when we are together at night why he gets up and leaves..he has only spent 7 nights with me in 4 yrs..I ask him about it and he says " not to nag him about it" well,,,,,,, that don't set right with me ..makes me feel like I'm with a married man or something is going on so here I go accusing him of doing other things which he says he isnt because he loves me ....I don't understand why he doesnt tell me the truth ..if you love someone as much as we do then why leave? why just get up and go home ? and never give me a answer...I'm so hurt over this ..I tell him it makes me feel cheap and that I need to be held .but he just don't get it...I'm really hurt because we love eachother so much but can't get past this..if we are both hurting by not being together then whats the problem? he says I dont trust him ..well , I say " why should I '? would any woman trust a man who says he wants to give 100 percent but can't even spend onenight in your arms? please tell me I'm normal for being upset..We are so good together but I dont want it to be part time..not talking about marriage but just something more than love me and leave me ...I told him if he cant give me what I want then leave me alone because it hurts too much but then we just keep emailing eachother back and forth and tell eachother how much hurt we are in ....its so confusing but I know I want more ..I know I diserve a full time commitment ..I know that if someone loves someone,holding them at night and wanting to be with them should be easy ...or maybe I am wrong ,,,please forgive me for going on and on ..I'm just so hurt and I miss him ..we can get very verbally abusive with eachother and say things we dont really mean but Im angry as heck ..I don't want to waste any more of my life on someone who tells me Im wrong for getting upset about my needs not being met ...its not even sexual its just being together and him being here in the morning ..im so sorry ...I think Im done now ...thanks for listening..I wrote a post on this a few days ago but this time I told alittle more ...we just talked a few mintues ago and he makes me feel guilty about not excepting him the way he is ...do you know why ? why he always wants me to feel that I hurt him ? please help me ...