wow. That sux. I think Depression is very bad for the brain. I think it is also possible that the miriad of drugs we take for it are not likely all that good for it either. I had a very bad reaction, after years, to desipramine that mimiced multiple sclerosis. I still take meds, but have weaned off to the bare minimum. Big pharma has one true goal - $$$. The bottom line is the bottom line. They, like the military, can take an acceptable loss in lives and still accomplish their goals to their share holders. Cynical, but more reasonable than the mythic belief they are angels with their only wish is to bless us. $$$ is the what it is all about.

Be easy on yourself. how old are you? I think we don't all manage to keep up our youth's pace until the end. We slow down and have to find new ways to manage work and lives. It is not so bad if you don't dwell on how it used to be, but try to adjust to doing the best you can with what you have. None of us are getting younger. If we don't learn to be at ease with the changes life brings through the years, we are going to be swimming upstream until exhausted.