First, I am assuming you went through all the conditional ideas to stop you from emailing this poor man. You know, blogging, sending an email to one of the many people who have offered to let you do that, etc. Am I wrong to assume that?

Maybe when you are this upset you need to step away from the computer. Just walk away.

Occupy your mind with something else. Hey, for the next 2 weeks there is practically some Olympic event on all day long. Go watch some of that. Exercise. Study. Do something to get you off the computer and away from the temptation.

Just because you don't care anymore doesn't make your behavior acceptable or excusable.

Take pride in the things you can/do/will accomplish. Stop letting this obsession rule your life. Seize your banning and make the most of it.

My husband's current favorite quote is, "just because you deserve to win, doesn't mean the other team is going to give it to you". Fight for the life you want.

It's your life. Do something with it.