I have no life to live 1dayatatime.

My social life is online. I'm pathetic. I like being obsessed with him. I feel like he's a comfort to me...even though he doesn't talk to me. I don't think my life is ruined by my obsession.

I don't e-mail him when I'm not blocked. I just get so lonely and sad when I'm blocked. E-mailing him is my way of coping.

It doesn't help that he doesn't tell me to stop. I've done this in the past and he's never done anything about it. I don't know what he's thinking.