I have been doing some tough ( I don't have to tell you how tough) trauma work with my pdoc/sexual trauma specialists of a year.I am embarrassed and find it very hard to say sometimes the littlest things or things that I feel are abnormal feelings. He lets me e-mail him whatever I want if that helps. When the words finally come out, he has a way of making me feel comforted and understood even if I still feel like my feelings are weird. He doesn't " do " touch but I feel wrapped up in such caring and acceptance that it is ok. I know that there will probably be some rough spots we will have to get through and everything won't always feel so nurturing but I hope I can always remember this time. I wish I knew what makes him so different from the one I was with for 20 years and probably saved my life. He left abruptly but I had a great relationship with him and he probably got me to the point I could do this work. I could never have done this work with him.

One thing that has helped me is everyone here and the tremendous courage you show. I realize I have just started, but I couldn't have even begun without reading your stories and your support. Thank you for sharing both the good and the bad and the difficulties and successes. You have given me the strength to start to this work.

I hope you all have a enjoyable long weekend.