I am sorry for your loss. It is still a loss even if you didn't know how you felt about it. Remember that your body has already gone through a lot of changes and your hormones are not at their normal levels. I imagine you could feel like you are on an emotional roller coaster. I hope you will be good to yourself this weekend and take some time to do things that make you feel good. You need to self soothe and make some time for you. You have had a tough week. Sending you safe {{{{hugs}}}}.