I have been hanging out in chat lately, but I just got home after my first inpatient stay. I couldn't stop fantasizing about sui and I wasn't eating, I was throwing up from the anxiety/depression.

Apparently my affect was so flat my friend almost drug me to the hospital herself, which she did end up doing after my meds person called to check on me.

Seroquel, klonopin, and lithium are my friends now. If you are interested in the story about how I led a revolt against a bad therapist just ask hehehe. I also managed off unit privileges to get real coffee. At one point the charge nurse asked me to use my leadership skills for the powers of good not evil.....LOL

Anyway if I could get some hugs I would appreciate it. Parts of the stay were very scary and I need to be able to share if someone will listen.