You don't deserve any of this! I wish you could come and live with me - I would take you in a heartbeat! Don't let him destroy your golden heart and thoughtful spirit. You are amazing with all the things that life has thrown at you and you keep on fighting through. I am so sorry this is happening! I wish I had better words - remind yourself that he is the problem - not you! Can you try to avoid him as much as possible when he is there? I want you to feel safe. It is not fair that this is happening! Sending all the safe vibes I can your way!