Hello,this is my first time writing on this site.i came across it when looking for some answers...
When i was 18yrs old i was a back passenger in my friends car.to cut a long story short,we were coming home from a night out when another car crashed into us at speed,they were on the wrong side of the road.our car caught fire and burst up into flames.we were knocked unconcious."there was 2 in the front+3 of us in the back".lucky for us a driver coming behind us stopped and jumped out,ran over and smashed the back window of the car and pulled us out from the back seat.i started to come round at this stage.i could see the car in flames,but i did,nt no what had happened.the only person left in the car was the driver,my best mate.iam not sure weather he was unconcious or not.i have it in my head him saying to get out of the car straight after the crash.
there was a lot of people around because a bus load of people stopped.the car was ingulfed in flames and they could not get him out.He was burned alive in the car before the fire service came.
The drivers girl-friend died 3days later of head injuries.
I was the only on with no real serious injuries.i ha slipped disks and my body was black with bruises and large cuts on my head.
The other back seat passengers had brain damage, broken pelvis etc,but thank god they had a good recovery.
The two of them did not remember a thing,but i did.i remember it all,thats my problem.I seen things that night you would.nt see in a horror movie.
I devloped severe post traumic stress,flash backs,panic attacks etc..
my gp sent me for councelling.It took 4/5 years,but i was getting alot better,life was back to normal,i could deal with it now.
I am 33yrs old now and was living a great life until february of this year.i was a front seat passenger of a car that was in another accident.
no-one was seriously hurt,i hurt my back again and the driver hurt his neck.
That night when i went home i tried to sleep,but i cud,nt.i kept having flash backs of both accidents,they were both mixed together.as the days went on i was getting worse and worse.i was having night terrors/sleep paralysis when i got to sleep and got very depressed.its as if a switch was turned on in my head. i am with-drawn and depressed durning the day and i dread going to bed at night.the night terrors are frighting.i am trapped in the car and it is on fire.
Iam only working part-time,2 sort days a week and even at that i find it very hard with my back and severe PTS.
i went to see a councellor few weeks ago.He looked into my eyes and asked if i was taking medication/drugs.I said no.the pain killers were hard on my stomach and i had quit them.
The doctor said he hadnt seen that in years,he used to work in A&E DEPARTMENT and said he had only ever seen it when some-one was ready to die or overdosed on herione.????????
I feel like i am going mad.i dont want to be around anyone or do anything.
What i cant understand is that no-one was killed in the second accident,but i am worse now then i was when my friends were killed????
Can any-one relate to this??sleep paralysis/night terrors/depression with pts???
Why are my pupils so small??????
what help can i get???
thanks for any help ..............