I guess he's not really pushing the issue, just putting out suggestions to help me switch from surviving to thriving (his words) All if it is connected - dressing, eye contact, sex issues - to me wanting to be asexual and invisible. The way I dress is a form of self-protection and denying my sexuality which is how it relates to sex with my husband. Part of what I need to do is re-claim my sexuality from my father and these are things that my T believes will help me head in that direction.
Honestly, it didn't freak me out. We've had pretty in depth conversations about these issues before, but I've always kinda avoided any real results, I think that I'm actually questioning the possibility is a sign that I'm in a different place now and maybe more ready to address it. I've never even been able to consider that there was another way before from the way my thought process works. I'm not sure I'm explaining this right. It didn't feel like he was being insensitive, it felt more like he was bringing up a next step option.
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Children's talent to endure stems from their ignorance of alternatives.
~ Maya Angelou
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