Actually, i guess what i'm saying is that i automatically assume that we can't touch without it leading to something more. I can't help but think that, and it's driving me nuts! That's pretty much the way I have been my whole life. I always had to look out for myself. I always had to make sure no one would hurt me. But now, I know that he won't hurt me, but i still can't just let go. It is very frustrating, and i don' t know what to do.