micky,

I just want to tell you that once you have PTSD, you are easily brought back to it with another trauma. Remember how long it took to get headway the first time?
Well, your going to need time and good therapy.

I understand what your talking about, I have similar issues and it is really hard. I know exactly what you mean about sleep issues and all that goes with it, even the fear of going to sleep.

I don't know if you can take clonazapam, that really helps me. I am able to get some sleep and not have those terrible night traumas. It doesn't always work, I tend to shiver at night with anxiety and if I have a bad day than it comes at me at night.
I was trying to lower my dose and doing better except I am facing a deposition and well, welcome back to flashbacks etc. So, I have been struggling wondering if I should increase the dose. I don't care for the side effects but I have to do something to help me deal with the anxiety.

Just dont let yourself get to frightened, try to realize that yes, the two will connect.
And make sure you take time to get the therapy you need. Just remember, you did survive. As far as the injuries go, well it all depends on where you are in a vehicle and how it an accident happens. You were very fortunate the first time, you walked away, but not entirely as you do remember it all, but you did walk away.

I am trying to concentrate on the fact that life is very short and I am trying to remember to take some time and enjoy something, even if it is to simply know that I am at least here and have time left to recover. The truth is your never going to understand why things happen, and sometimes all we can do is just give it time and heal as best we can and realize that we were just allowed to survive. And we are not responsible for what happens to others. And you have to recognize that you are in some kind of state of shock and its going to take time to recover from that.

I think the best thing you can do is to keep telling yourself to relax and take deep breaths and quietly tell yourself, its okay, calm down, relax, Im okay repeating that.

See if you can try clonazapam, ask your therapist or pdoc. I have a sensitive stomach too and I seem to be ok on it. Actually it helps me calm down so my stomach gets a break in a way.

JD is right, she knows all too well. Easy does it, make sure you keep getting therapy.

Open Eyes