Thanks everyone. I made myself go out today even though I didnt really want to, and I felt more alone amongst people than I did on my own. Now I just feel completely overwhelmed, with no one to talk to and I want this pain to end now. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up (not sui). Every passing moment feels worse than the last right now and I am completely without hope. I dread waking up in the morning for feeling this way. It s just too much for me right now.