Im really caught up in something. I cant go into the details but I know something that someone thinks I dont know and Ive waited for them to say but they havent and now I know they have been lying. And im trying to figure out what to do. And its the hardest thing and driving me mad and pretty soon im going to end up doing something about it and all the time Im trying to hold myself back. But its like a tidal wave at the back of me. You see I met someone that this person knows and they told me some stuff just in convesation (two things) and i could have died when i heard what i heard. And all the girls in me just threw a fit, a total fit. And all the time Ive waited for the other person to tell me. Actually I know two things and both are really important. And it seems to me that the other person doesnt trust me or want to explain something. But im just getting more and more confused and more and more angry and more and more hurt. I dont know what to do, who to turn to or how to resolve this. Meanwhile I have people inside me going absolutely bananas and its like having real danger in me around all of this. I dont know how to get this sorted. Imagine someone going on at me about trust when they are not telling me the truth and all the time I have to shut up cos I shouldnt know what I know but i do know it and i know that both of these things are true. Obviously I cant be trusted. And this person who is telling me to trust them means the world to me and all the time I keep hoping that they will come clean but they havent. But this person is telling me to trust them. Why would someone hold out. Why would someone, who says they never lie and that they never tell me things that are not true, why would this person tell me a thing that i know is not true and not tell me about the other thing? I have all these girls inside crying and screaming about it but I cant say cos I should know the two things that i know.

Audrey