I've been invited to hang out with my friend and his friends next week. I've never met these people before, I have no idea who they are, what they're like. I live in a different neighbourhood than they do and everything.. My anxiety is something I worry about. I'm not too bad with one on one, but the last time I hung out with friends of friends I became "one with the background" and didn't talk or even walk beside them. I just trailed along behind in my own little world. Sad that I couldn't feel okay and join but more comfortable than I would be trying to pay attention.

My friend is trying to persuade me to come along obviously unaware of how this really troubles me but inside I don't want to. I keep trying to find ways to get out of this.. I just can't see how I can survive being the "extra wheel". Meeting and hanging out with a whole bunch of people at once.. Not ready for it.