Hi. I know I'm just new here but, I totally get it. I started cutting almost 7 years ago (I'm 2 today), and I was "sober" until tonite...hadn't done it for 3 years, which surprised me as well as the few people who even knew I did it. It IS possible to fight the urges, you just need to realize what's worth fighting for...unfortunately, I lost that thought tonight. But I'll get it back, and you WILL find yours. Be strong.