I am on a manic streak but it's managable during the day... at night however I come alive. As soon as my family go to bed I come alive and it's so weird. I am scared they see me like that. Anyways I have decided not to take my meds now and again and have stopped sleeping. I am just wanting to be better. I have been chatting to these guys online and gave them my mobile and email address. I got freaked out and deleted my email account. But then I started speaking to other guys and get such a buzz when talking to them. I start getting the "gooey" feeling and think woohoo someone likes me. I have stopped taking my meds at the moment as I don't want to sleep. I know I have to take them but I want to stay up all night. I am raging as I managed 23 hours wide awake and crashed out for over an hour. I am furious I wanted to bet my record of 28 hours solid. My family think I have slept as I lied I am having a bed day and don't really care. Haven't even showered and don't really plan on doing it. Why bother?? I was pacing like mad last night while my family where in a seperate room to me. When they all left the house I started talking to myself and was having a good old time talking to people. I like talking like that as no-one answers me back lol!! I have had a hard time this month with indestructability and threats of sectioning being on my mind which I am not going into... My CPN has threatened this if I can not be safe!! I am refusing hospitalisation if that is the case..... NO WAY!!