Calista+12,

I agree, one of our biggest battles is trying to get help from people who don't really understand DID.

I've only told my daughter and my two sisters and they have become my family support system. I won't tell anyone else.

I've become quite an expert at covering it up. But then when I get quite depressed I think on the fact that no one really knows ME and this doesn't help me at all.

We really only have ourselves to help us. I'm a good reader, I love reading and this helped me a lot to come to terms with what I am dealing with. I read everything I got my hands on about DID, even when it was called MPD - I didn't like that term, it frightened the life out of me. I much prefer how DID explains it.

I wouldn't agree to hypnoses or ECT. I can just about cope with what is going on just now. I feel I really couldn't cope with throwing any spanners into the works.

I shared a dream with my psych-doc too. In this dream I saw all these precious stones and a silver melted metal was being poured over them. Psych-doc came up with the idea that it was mercury and that it was fixing all the precious stones in one setting - a coming together of all the part perhaps. I don't really know what to think of it but it was a pretty good session that day.