[b]Just when I think I'm in a tough spot, things get tougher.

The ambien issue is a minute one, now.

I'm not doing well.

While I've been trying to accept the increased constant pain, and the limiting all activity, being content (?) with playing computer games while lying in bed...

my physical therapist said my MD called and talked with him. Seems she may put her foot down about my driving. The good side of this is MAYBE she will medicate me for my pain then, and also, maybe she will push for the power chair I need if I do things.

Of course the down side of it is not driving. (I have to give up driving to be able to go and do ? ) I'm alone. The insurance company and attorneys are already balking at helping me further...

No one "knows" where I live, a part of the safety valve I had in place to assist with the PTSD.... ppl are going to have to know where I live if I have to rely upon them for assistance.... IF the insurance company allows me help.

The thought of the gap between not being able to drive, and when the insurance company might authorize power chair, vehicle and assistant... that could be... months and months or years? I don't have the fight in me right now...

I really don't want to have to do this.... I'm really not doing well.....