I'm sorry you're feeling so alone. When I used to stay home I got bored a lot too. There's only so many tv shows you can watch, books to read, music to listen to, etc. Sometimes I would spend time organizing things in my house, but most of my time was spent being online, watching videos on youtube, reading blogs, etc. I was also lucky to have cats as my companions so they kept me pretty busy. It was hard at first but after I started working with a therapist and getting on medication, things got a lot better. I hope things get better for you.