Myself...i've prepared a little translation for you. I don't want you to feel embarrassed, exposed or threatened, as people often do. I did it cos i enjoy it, and i think it is helpful.

This is what i believe your....long, long, post said.

"You are so thoughtful. Thankyou. You are special. You are too young to be suicidal.

I loved her

I visit it all the time. I feel responsible for her death because she had no-one else in her life.

I miss her. I want to die just so i can see her. My life is nothing without her.

I want to die. But i'm scared. I think i'm bipolar cos i want to be young again.

I love life. I don't want it to end. But it will one day. It makes me sad. I thinks i will die very soon. I will miss my son. I would prefer to suicide.

Do you have any suggestions?

I feel desperate. You are smart. I like talking to you and want you to know everything.

You've been suicidal too, just like me.

I'm sick of this. I feel incapable. I read your post intently. I always do. But i get scared.

I am hurting. People ignore me. I do a lot for other people, but they don't give me the respect i deserve.

I love thrills, i'm a thrill-seeker.

What a good idea, i can never get enough.

You are so caring, i love you. You help me want to live.

Don't hurt yourself, you have so much to offer.

You should be a psychologist. That is your calling."

Cheers!!!! I will post advice when i get around to it.

Regards,

Sometimes