Well, I don't know what went wrong in my life, but I have problems with self esteem. It's weird because pretty much everyone I meet likes me a lot. I'm very friendly and get along well with others. I know I'm a good person. But-I don't like to be alone. I'm very self destructive and I have abused my body so badly over the years with drugs and alcohol and knives. I know I need to change and I want to change, I just don't know how or where to begin. I am glad I found this forum, it is giving me a place to start. Thank you.