My appointment is tomorrow (31st) and I still do not have the assignment done. Why do I feel that I do not deserve to be in therapy? I don't know, but I still don't feel that I deserve to be there.
"Deserve:to merit, be qualified for, or have a claim to (reward, assistance, punishment, etc.) because of actions, qualities, or situation: to deserve exile; to deserve charity" How about 'being qualified for because of a situation'? Then, of course, you deserve!!!!

I guess I feel like I am taking up a session that someone who really needs help could be taking. That makes me feel really bad for some reason.
somehow or another, I suspect that people who really really need help will find a therapist. I know many a therapist who could use more clients in order to keep their business solvent.

When I think about what I am doing to myself, it makes me cry. Why? I am crying for that inner child who wants to heard. She wants to feel that she matters. I hurt for that child. I want her to feel worthy, but I don't know how to help her. She does not feel worthy of anything. She feels like she is hiding and wants to be invisible, yet she is screaming for someone to find her.Here it is - your answer. You 'deserve' to be heard, just like all of us. Let's embrace that idea/feeling/thought wholeheartedly.